Get all 27 carter c releases available on Bandcamp and save 50%.
Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of pet sounds, old fabric, revisited, northern songs, pdx!!!! (acoustic) EP, scary words, pdx!!!!, the things i love and why i love them, i think of children, i think of you in trouble, and 19 more.
1. |
nighttime oracle
03:40
|
|||
|
i wish that i was nothing
i wish i was a boy
and everytime i fucking complain
i wish i would ask for more
if i had a chance to say
the things i never spoke
i’d probably go on and on for hours
about feeling like your toy
oh, i see you in the moon
oh, i see you in my dreams
when i close my eyes
i’m so scared of what i see
a future without you
i would give up everything
just to feel good
devils scratching at our backs
but i am me, and you are you
everytime we think about us
there’s so many tears
but this who we are now
and i’m glad to be here
i wish that i could change the past
but i know i can’t!
i wish that i could say something
to my other half!
i wish that i could love the world more
it isn’t beautiful
i wish that we could blow our
feelings away!
oh i see you in the moon
oh i see you in my dreams
when i close my eyes
i’m so scared of what i see
a future without you
|
||||
2. |
||||
|
if i have to be here
i might as well be with you
it’s been so long since
i haven’t hated you
we spent so long here
in this lovely place
when we were lovers
but now we’re something new
taking a 6 hour car drive
to see who we used to be
you wear that shirt that i took a picture of you in
you look so different, everything’s faced
we used to dance under the stars
ill fitting shirts and late night fights
it’s impossible to hate you now
in this space i can’t hate you now
if i have to be here
i might as well be with you
it’s been so long since
i haven’t hated you
we spent so long here
in this lovely place
when we were lovers
but now we’re something new
so there's this place
i take all my friends there
its my favorite tree
a huge old growth douglas fir
it's in castle rock state park
at the junction of the ridge trail and the saratoga gap trail
if u wanna check it out its
37.227024, -122.103956
i want to take you there
but i think
you still hate me
and when you talk to me now it’s nothing i wanna hear
in a situation where isolation was something i was near
every walking route to get down in the summer had you by my side
the only other gay kid in town but the sun was in my eyes
and then we had two more years high school and it
wasn’t nice lookin back now
you takin every chance to explain that you like guys
to everyone around
you attention seeking fuck
seeking straightest guy in town
you liar
your theater friends are gone now
if i have to be here
i might as well be with you
it’s been so long since
i haven’t hated you
we spent so long here
in this lovely place
when we were lovers
but now we’re something new
|
||||
3. |
lapis
03:52
|
|||
|
stuck inside your room for a thousand years
when they let you out you had no eyes
missing home every day, it’s too far to fly
learning how to let go and fight for what you love
and i know that one day we won’t have to worry about them
and i know that one day we won’t have to fight anymore!!
build a new home with the ones that you love
get invested in shitty cartoon shows
and i know that one day we won’t have to worry about them
and i know that one day we won’t have to fight anymore!!
|
||||
4. |
tvcc
04:01
|
|||
|
and everytime you ask to do something with me
my heart skips a beat
i haven’t seen you in so long
our brain combined as one
our heart seems to not fit
our brain combined as one
our heart seems to not fit
and every show that i’ve watched
since you've left
i haven’t enjoyed nearly as much
even though your silence deafened me
our brain combined as one
our heart seems to not fit
our brain combined as one
our heart seems to not fit
there’s a chair backroom (repeated)
YNCE ICHE GREAT AND POWERFUL
WON’T YOU SHINE FOR ME
OPEN A PORTAL IN MY SCHOOL’S BACKROOM
AND LET ME COME AND SEE
ELAINE JR PROTECT THE PRINCESS
I THINK SHE’S THAT KID
I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S HAPPENED YET
I’M ONLY AT SEASON 8
MARCUS THE CROW
WON’T YOU DIE FOR ME
YOU’VE MADE THEIR LIVES A LIVING HELL
I GUESS YOURE IN FOR THE LONG HAUL
ARE YOU WORKING WITH EMMA NOW
EMMA LEE I WISH I COULD BE LIKE YOU
BEFORE THE REBOOT YOU TRIED SO HARD
|
||||
5. |
poindexter
02:29
|
|||
|
white room, stab myself
just to wake up
flower crowns & yr gone
forgot what you looked like
i want to talk
but i’m no longer alive
wish i could speak
but i can’t say goodbye
bedroom, somewhere i can’t sleep
i feel you watching me
single eye staring at me
from under my bed
i want to talk
but i’m no longer alive
wish i could speak
but i can’t say goodbye
spooky ghost!!! ʕº̫͡ºʔ ʕº̫͡ºʔ ʕº̫͡ºʔ
|
||||
6. |
||||
|
i’ve loved you
i love you
detached from our past
that’s how
i’ll remember you when i’m gone
apart from our love
i’ll remember you
…i’ll remember you
i’ve loved you
i love you
everytime that we dance in my dreams
i feel like i’m with you
but every single minute since you’ve left
all i’ve done is miss you
i’m bleeding from the heart again
the first time was only smiles, smiles!
this time i can feel
everything falling to bits
just like our love
everytime that we dance in my dreams
i feel like i’m with you
but every single minute since you’ve left
all i’ve done is miss you
|
||||
7. |
||||
8. |
sick
03:40
|
|||
|
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
are you here, you’re almost done
sinking feeling for everyone
i think our end goal needs to be defined
or one of us isn’t gonna make it out alive
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
everytime i look in a mirror
i don’t see myself at all
just a projectection of what you want me to be
i can’t feel myself at all
but i don’t know what i am
i don’t feel
i don’t feel good at all
stab myself with the back of a hammer
hiding in the back my damn car
i don’t love
i don’t love right at all
leaving parties when they’ve barely started
hearing your screams from the back my damn car
i remember you every night
you are the dark when i close my eyes
i can’t believe i drove across town
every single night to show you the stars
but i don’t know what i am
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
i’ve loved/ i’m sick of you
*glitches*
|
||||
9. |
||||
|
burning houses, or did they used to be homes?
burning houses, or did they used to be homes?
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
scratching useless words into your back
4 foot tall animal stuck in my heart
we both know how hard it is to hide
how different everything is anyways
i wish i couldn’t care/ (but who cares anyways?)
but everything i do alone reminds me of you
there’s a deafening silence
and it pierces my heart
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
burning houses, or did they used to be homes?
burning houses, or did they used to be homes?
i always try to speak my heart
everything spews out into a pool
and everytime you tried to drown
a little piece of me of me decided to drown too
and i can't reach the drain / (but who cares anyways?)
how the hell did you get out of here
and i know i’ve become so negative
i am so childish
stretch yourself into a shape that i can see, and i can feel
we go on and on and on and on like tv, on and on and on and on like tv
throw ourselves into a pit, so we can learn to feel
we go on and on and on and on like tv, on and on and on and on like tv
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
i think of children, i think of you in trouble
so you might as well talk to someone else
|
||||
10. |
neon sky
09:12
|
|||
|
i know myself. i know my limitations. i know exactly who i'm trying to be and how i'm trying to do it. i have goals, dreams, aspirations, and all the tools set aside for me to complete these. i am in control of me, my future, and my situation. i have everything i could ever want, need, or desire. every time i look into this great city’s skyline, i am reminded of how little time i have left. 3 months, minus tour, so only two months. i wonder if we’ll ever gaze into each other's eyes again, you and i. here. oh neon signs, you rip my soul into a million shining stars.
your parasocial relationship with feeling like shit has drowned me and all of your friends
sometimes i silence my phone and lay on my bed suffocating in your sin
half of the time i think you’re real,, but i just know you’re a manifestation of everything i loved as a tween
but from experience i’ve held you in my arms, falling, and falling, again
oh, running once again
to, a place i’ve never been
will this really be my home
well, without you i don't think so!
an unhealthy attachment to couches, slept in for a week in a time
driving through the city, no moon to see
but every time i look into the vegas skyline, there’s not a single star in sight
except for you of course, but i can only see you from nose hill, calgary
who are you now
i can feel us sinking again
who are you now
am i even really your friend
oh, running once again
to, a place i’ve never been
will this really be my home
well, without you i don't think so!
(unintelligable)
i was watching a friend talk about their own future demise while the lover of their dreams danced with their soon-to-be partner behind their back. when gaining insight into your own mind costs you your own wellbeing, is it truly worth it? when i was a kid i wondered where i would go. i mean, i always kind of knew i would be doing what i do know but i could only really imagine “home” as my house, and by bed and stuff. i wonder if i’ll meet anyone so divinely comforting that i’ll question my future demise for them. will i be a martyr for the heart? i thought you’d say that. i am a little compulsive, haha. anyways they’ll see you soon, bye.
|
||||
11. |
...and why i love you
04:22
|
|||
|
spent a year in a book
there’s so many stories to tell
and everything i went to sleep
i’d see in you in my dreams
but now things have changed
everyone is going away
how do i live without
you at my every move
sweaty hands bloodshot eyes
driving down the highway
couldn’t look to say goodbye
feel so empty now
will we ever be one
or just two souls across the globe
i think i’ve tried to give up
but when i think of love i think of you
why i love you? i don’t know
i should’ve given up so long ago
but every time i look into your eyes
i feel like home
i’ve loved and i love you/goodbye
i’ve loved and i love you
|
||||
carter c recommends:
My Back Is Killing Me Baby
by Car Seat Headrest
probably most likely the absolute most influential album to my music. if i could write a thousand my back is killing me babies i would but none would beat the original. lofi masterpiece. <3
go to album
Internet Folk Songs
by Monkey & The Permavirgins
super sweet + cute album made by my besties gus and charlie (among others!) beautiful lofi indie gaycore that totally helped me find my place in the DIY sphere. MATPV x carter c 4 life <3
go to album
I'm Happy. Anyway, I'm Not Dying. (2016 Remaster)
by Yseulde
for sure the most beautiful album i've ever heard in my entire life. yseulde creates magnificent soundscapes using just a guitar, some loops, tapes, occasional synths, and a whole fuck ton of heart.
go to albumIf you like carter c, you may also like:
supported by 29 fans who also own “the things i love and why i love them”
this album made me FEEL things. love it! :3
go to album
supported by 22 fans who also own “the things i love and why i love them”
i like the reoccurring motifs 👍👍
go to album
IV
by Letting Up Despite Great Faults
On their latest LP, the Austin group peel away the synth and distortion to highlight the jangly melodies at the core of their songs.
go to album
